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a looking for alaska fanmix
edit: let go and i just do added!


1. oh my god - kaiser chiefs
Drifting apart like a plate tectonic
It don't matter to me
'Cos all I wanted to be
Was a million miles from here
Somewhere more familiar
And oh my god I can't believe it
I've never been this far away from home
Great rulers make for greater glory
The only thing growing is our history
Knock me down I'll get right back up again

“I go to seek a Great Perhaps.” (last words of François Rabelais)

2. campus - vampire weekend
I wake up
My shoulder's cold
I've got to leave here
Before I go
I pull my shirt on
Walk out the door
Drag my feet along the floor
Then I see you
You're walking cross the campus
How am I supposed to pretend
I never want to see you again?

“Sometimes I don’t get you,” I said.
            She didn’t even glance at me. She just smiled towards the television and said, “You never get me. That’s the whole point.”

3. let go - imogen heap
Drink up, baby down
Are you in or are you out
Leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble wrap
When you've no idea what you're like
So let go, so let go, jump in
Oh well, whatcha waiting for
It's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So let go, let go, just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here

“Auden,” she announced. “What were his last words?”
            “Don’t know. Never heard of him.”
            “Never heard of him? You poor, illiterate boy. Here, read this line.” I walked over and looked down at her index finger. “You shall love your crooked neighbour / With your crooked heart,” I read aloud. “Yeah, that’s pretty good,” I said.
            “Pretty good? Sure, and bufriedos are pretty good. Sex is pretty fun. The sun is pretty hot. Jesus, it says so much about love and brokenness - it’s perfect.”

4. too young to fight it - young love
Take a dare, don't tell the truth
keep this between me and you
whispers become loud when word of this gets out
will the message cause a motion
we won't know till we get there
when the suns down lights come up
friends and enemies come together
summer nights hitting
it so hot we’re blistering
can't stop from moving
we're too young to fight it
can't stop, just sleep it off

rumors get so loud we want to scream and shout
it's taking over now, you can't control it
you're shaking soaking wet
in the middle of the night again

"I wanted to like booze more than I actually did (which is more or less the precise opposite of how I felt about Alaska). But that night, the booze felt great, as the warmth of the wine in my stomach spread through my body. I didn’t like feeling stupid or out of control, but I liked the way it made everything (laughing, crying, peeing in front of your friends) easier."

5. i just do - dear & the headlights
I guess I'm scared to death but
Oh I just love you, Oh I just love you
When I look at you,
I've caught myself off-guard a time or two
Those funny times I realize that I've been staring
Way too long and you're done talking
Not to mention I've stopped breathing
In less than twenty words you made
My whole damn day
To do, because I couldn't stand to look
At you across another crowded room
And know that you would not be mine
Oh I just love you, Oh I just love you

"Her underwear, her jeans, the comforter, my corduroys and my boxers between us, I thought. Five layers, and yet I felt it, the nervous warmth of touching – a pale reflection of the fireworks of one mouth on another, but a reflection nonetheless. And in the almostness of the moment, I cared at least enough. I wasn’t sure whether I liked her, and doubted whether I could trust her, but I cared at least enough to try to find out. Her on my bed, wide green eyes staring down at me. The enduring mystery of her sly, almost smirking, smile. Five layers between us."

6. love and some verses - iron & wine
Love and some verses you hear
say what you can't say
love to say this in your ear,
"I'll love you that way"
from your changing contentments,
what will you choose for to share?
someday drawing you different,
may I be weaved in your hair?

"I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating.
So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk,
thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane."

7. always where i need to be - the kooks

Do whatever comes naturally to you,
You know she just don't care

'cause I'm always where I need to be
Yeah, and I always thought I would end up
With you, eventually
I'm a man, and I can be so obscene
Because I always think that I know how to be,
But I always thought that I would end up with you, eventually

"I wanted to be one of those people who have streaks to maintain, who scorch the ground with their intensity. But for now, at least I knew such people, and they needed me, just like comets need tails."

8. december - lydia
Promise you will go down my neck.
Just like those pills and your cigarette.

So as my fingers curl,
I move my lips just so you won't have to.
Damnit you clever girl,
your style is keeping us from sleep.
It's one more and I'm free,
oh we've been so lucky,
yeah, we've been so likely to lose.
So give in, let's give in.
It's all suicide if I hide.
Because you are everywhere I look and in my skin.
I taste your neck and lips just from breathing in.

But through the window you reach for the cold.
But the door is so much closer,
and the sun has sold itself to the land
and all over my skin.
No! No!
Stop it, stop him.
so what, we all were afraid.

"She turned away from me and softly, maybe to herself, said, 'Jesus, I’m not going to be one of those people who sits around talking about what they’re gonna do. I’m just going to do it. Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia.'
            'Huh?' I asked.          
            'You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.' "


9. into dust - mazzy star
Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Beside me today
Like two strangers
Turning into dust
'Till my hand shook with the way I fear
I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing colder
I could feel myself under your fate
It was you breathless and tall
I could feel my eyes turning into dust

"Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructable as we believe ourselves to be. ... We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail."

10. in the sun - joseph arthur
I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in
I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake
I don't know anymore
What it's for
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me

"And I was left to ask, did I help you toward a fate you didn’t want, Alaska? Or did I just assist in your willful self-destruction?"

11. signs - bloc party.
The last time we slept together, there was something that was not there
You never wanted to alarm me but I'm the one that's drowning now
I could sleep forever these days because in my dreams I see you again
At your funeral I was so upset, so upset,
in your life you were larger than this
I see signs now all the time that your not dead your sleeping
I believe in anything that brings you back home to me

"No reason to be angry, anger just distracts from the all-encompassing sadness, the frank knowledge that you killed her and robbed her of a future and a life. Getting pissed wouldn’t fix it, dammit."

12. she is the sunlight - trading yesterday
If loving her is heartache for me
And if holding her means that I have to bleed
Then I am the martyr and love is to blame
She is the healing and I am the pain
She lives in a daydream where I don't belong
She is the sunlight and the sun is gone

"She didn't leave me enough to discover her, but she left me enough to rediscover the Great Perhaps."



artwork inspired by antonella87  and casettes 

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